One of the quotes that rattles around in my brain is:

'He who angers you- controls you".

I am usually perceived as a nice person, I have even had a few people accuse me of being too nice. They explained to me how I was too nice, and this wasn't a good quality. My husband teases about how people meet us and think he is this loud, overbearing, quick tempered, opinionated person, while I am viewed as sweet, nice, mild mannered and easy to get along with. He teases because we may appear to be like that, but it is just that, an appearance.

I am the quick tempered (just ask my kids about comments made as I drive- I don't swear, but I will tell the other drivers exactly how bad their driving abilities are), I have strong opinions about almost everything, and overbearing could be the same as me being a big control freak! Now my dear husband, is loud and opinionated, but it takes a lot to provoke him. I've tried, and rarely succeed.

I have this quote above, replaying in my head as much as I can, trying to remind me to 'let it go'. I can't and should worry about other people, and what they think about me. I can't use my time and energy trying to please others. It never ends good! Then, I get angry because I have let someone else use me or my time, and then they have control. Which then makes me even more frustrated, because I hate not being in control (once again, just ask anyone in my family).

This is a vicious cycle!! The only hope I have to break this cycle is by not trying to please other people, and then I don't get angry, and thus I stay in control.

Well, that sure felt good to vent.

Gratitudes for today-

1. Ice cream with my daughter on our 'girls day' (even tough the 7 month old boy was in tow- but daughter said he didn't count as a boy yet).
2. A visit to Dr. Smith- my favorite Dr. EVER!
3. The sound of the A/C running
4. Seeing my sister's belly grow- with a baby she was told would never happen!
5. Thinking about the Flag quilt almost being done!