My little secret?

I find myself thinking about this blog more and more. I can't decide if I should tell the people I know I have it. I was reading someone else's blog, and how she is in the middle of this yucky situation because she had posted some of her feelings and opinions, and a few people she knows are now offended and mad at her. This makes me think I should keep this blog site as my little secret, from the people I know in 'real life'. I think of this as sort of a journal. What if I write about someone or something that happens to me, with a person in my life, and if they should read it- what then?

This brings my next thought- maybe having the people in my life, know my opinion and thoughts could be good. It's what I tell my older kids, 'be yourself, and if the other kids don't like you, it's their loss- but you have to be true to yourself'. It is fascinating to me, how people have the ability to tell total strangers their deepest secrets, but people who love and care for us sometimes don't know our true feelings. I call this the 'Jerry Springer phenomenon'. ( I have to put a quick disclaimer- I do not watch this show- I have seen it, and know the premise, but I haven't been a watcher). Think about it, people have the ability to go on the show and tell their loved one about some affair, or secret double life they have been living. Why couldn't they do this in the privacy of their living room, or therapist's office? They felt more comfortable on National TV!

I now kind of understand- I have this little blog, my little space, to share my thoughts and opinions. This space where I don't have to be PC b/c of family relationships, or worrying about hurting my friends feelings if I totally disagree with her actions. I still haven't decided to tell people I know about this. It's kind of fun having a little secret, something all mine- not having to share. I don't know what I will do yet, I'm still undecided.

I know this- for me it's lots of fun to have a secret! Not to be boastful, but I can keep a secret. Nobody in my family is good a keeping secrets, most of my friends can't keep secrets very well. I love to keep a secret- I get a rush knowing something no one else knows I know. It's kindof a little powertrip!

In school I wasn't a good secret keeper, I learned the hard way. Now that I'm grown, (even though I feel fresh out of school), I understand how keeping a secret can be so important. Even if I think it's little, if somebody tells me not to tell- I won't tell anyone, until I've been told it's OK. This all leads back to my delima- it's fun not having anyone know about my blog. I'll have to figure out what I should do.

In the meantime, there is a neat blog or web site(?) whichever, it's neat. People send in their secret on real postcards, and this site post the postcards- it's all anonyomous. It's fun to follow along, sometimes it's sad and scary, sometimes happy and funny- check it out at

postsecret.blogspot.com

http://postsecret.blogspot.com/